Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Night Owl Am I...

Ever since Summer Camp has concluded, for some reason, I stay up all hours. It IS nice and quiet, but I think there is something more to it. Right now we are in the midst of a lot of transition and I am desperately lonely. Yeah, I am.

I am not one of those girls who constantly NEED people, not hat is NOT me. But right now, my hubby is wrapped up in his own thoughts. As a matter of fact, just tonight he apologized to me for me so wrapped up in his own world. He has people he talks to, and he goes to a job three or four days a week. But I am basically at home with a 4 yo and a 6 mo all day, every day, then care for my three oldest when they get in from school. I LOVE being a mom, and I don;t mind the house maintenance stuff, BUT I feel like thee is great need for order, and until I get it, I CANNOT function.

Until recently, for almost 14 years of our marriage, I worked in a para-professional capacity and my dh basically was home with the kids most of the time. It's really been hard for me to transition in this, desire our other pending transitions, not to mention the fact that I have a new baby.

I really hope that I can find the inner peace I am yearning for in my quiet times with God. I am desperate for it.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I am a nightowl too! It is 2am where I am and I am listening to all my guys snoring! LOL